Shitty Week. Shitty Feelings.

First, i writing all this after i getting tired since the last 2 - 3 days.

I not getting enough rest, i can't get my self to rest actually.

Now my head getting all dizzy, my eyes sore like there a needle stickin in my eyes.

Its not like i trying not to sleep or what, but i just can't.

This week is just too much for me.

I trying to act cool, like nothing happen.

So she won't worried about me.

(but yeah, i hope she didn't read this post, yet i want her to read, yeah. i dunno what i want right now..)

But the time that i getting right now is just killing me.

I got plenty of time, by plenty i mean like the whole week.

And weeks to come.

And my minds also trying to sabotaging me...

Keep thinking something that i would not want to happen.

I trying to avoid all the feeling that i feel right now.

Trust me, I tried.

Awww.

How i wish i can go find something, doing something.

That may help me get loose.

And forget all the shitty things that always come to my mind.

Okay.

What i need the most right now?

I need someone that can hear what i going to say.

What i going to spurt it out.

I need REAL person.

That i can look in the eyes.

That i can hug.

Yeah. I hope its YOU.

Please. I getting tired already.

Please. I need my rest back.

Please. I need my appetite back.

Please. How i hope i can skip this week.

Please. How i hope i just can forget this week.

Please. I need to do something.

Please. I need my mood back.

Please. I need you right now.

Yeah. I hate to admit that i emo.

But this week just make me realised it myself.

Sometimes i can get emotional too.

This feeling is just SUCKS!

p/s: not in the mood to put any emots.