First, i writing all this after i getting tired since the last 2 - 3 days.
I not getting enough rest, i can't get my self to rest actually.
Now my head getting all dizzy, my eyes sore like there a needle stickin in my eyes.
Its not like i trying not to sleep or what, but i just can't.
This week is just too much for me.
I trying to act cool, like nothing happen.
So she won't worried about me.
(but yeah, i hope she didn't read this post, yet i want her to read, yeah. i dunno what i want right now..)
But the time that i getting right now is just killing me.
I got plenty of time, by plenty i mean like the whole week.
And weeks to come.
And my minds also trying to sabotaging me...
Keep thinking something that i would not want to happen.
I trying to avoid all the feeling that i feel right now.
Trust me, I tried.
Awww.
How i wish i can go find something, doing something.
That may help me get loose.
And forget all the shitty things that always come to my mind.
Okay.
What i need the most right now?
I need someone that can hear what i going to say.
What i going to spurt it out.
I need REAL person.
That i can look in the eyes.
That i can hug.
Yeah. I hope its YOU.
Please. I getting tired already.
Please. I need my rest back.
Please. I need my appetite back.
Please. How i hope i can skip this week.
Please. How i hope i just can forget this week.
Please. I need to do something.
Please. I need my mood back.
Please. I need you right now.
Yeah. I hate to admit that i emo.
But this week just make me realised it myself.
Sometimes i can get emotional too.
This feeling is just SUCKS!
p/s: not in the mood to put any emots.